A LETTER FOR ME

I feel you pull me towards you.

I feel you push away.

I feel you disconnect

as you go off the other way.

 

You go off on your own

to discover the things you're made of

Your books, your words, explore

your body, mind, your heart

 

unravels in surrender,

unfolds only in trust.

Take a leap of faith,

swim with the feeling and

I'll be there in the waves to share with you.

 

 

-Kayla Viola

 

The observer

I'm about to burst

of color,

burst of light.

sick of observing

sick of the sight

of the river.

I'd rather be in her,

a creator

of movement, motion, flow.

Instead of hanging on the side,

teach me how to let go

of the banks so muddy

roots reach out as they whisper "trust me. trust me."

I'm comfy, comfy

in the sludge that holds me.

 

-Kayla Viola

SEX ON THE PAGE

Words on the page got me feelin myself

i want to feel your creativity with mine as they swirl and spiral together entwined

directed to this

to feel your touch on my body my face my lips my throat my neck my breast my collar my arms my hands my fingers my belly my hips my thighs, my thighs

your presence

our power playfully dances in a free fall from the sky as i nip at your chest, your neck, and claw on your back before breaking.

the force of our fall drilled into the ground as we redirect outward breaking apart and soaring

i get chills

we sink gently into the wind's current wherever it takes us, once again soaring alone.

i revel in your power, dance in it's wake as it provokes mine.

awaken from your slumber, it says, come dance with me.

so i pick up this pen and dance, and shake me awake

the tears flowing my mouth open my breath frozen

can you feel me

i only want to revel in your power

will you revel in mine?

come dance with... play in the rain of blessings and tears

celebrate

pull everything in before burstin in a ray of

light shines out our love

your love takes root and claims its place

in my heart in the ground in the stream

words on the page,

you provoke me.

-Kayla Viola

ANXIETY

What is this?

this feeling

this fear

this force

Panic.

blood rushing through

my veins pulsing

make it stop! It's all in my head if it's all in my head why wont it stop!

i have no control!

She forces awareness

of my blood, of my veins

of my heart, of my breath

I have ignored it.

 

Anxiety pulls me

She tears me

She shows me

Her force

breaks open

a flood of feeling

my body...

limbs go numb, stiff

i can't move

Heavy and Paralyzed

what is this?

make it stop! It's all in my head if it's all in my head why won't it...

Stop.

Surrender....

to the flood of feeling

my body

fear or no fear, darling, it's your choice

Anxiety shows me...

What i have ignored.

neglect, suppress, block

Emotion, my body, my voice.

she offers me feeling

she offers me flow

she offers me presence

she offers me growth

Without Her, I would not be here.

Thank you, Anxiety.

 

 

SEPARATION

when the snake crept in

and we believed him

separation.

He said we could have more

BE more

separation.

He promised us light

and love

separation.

We did not know we are All

need no

be no

more separation.

We did not know we are

Light   and

Love

BEcause.... separation.

We are the snake too

and I know it hurts you

but separation is the only lie.

-Kayla Viola